I don’t even know if this is a quote. I was pissed when the piece of chalk was in my hand.
Emails from teachers, text messages from the ex wife, IM’s from a big customer…. Nothing good!
Missing homework, mental instability and a stupid mistake….
….whoa is me!
I started watching that documentary about Michael J. Fox and his life with Parkinson’s. That’s when I realized all three of the issues from Tuesday afternoon were all fixed by Tuesday night. At least the homework issue and the customers position were taken care of. The mental instability west of Mannheim will never go away.
My problems were fixed, but Michael J Fox will still have to deal with Parkinson’s Wednesday morning.
So I guess the angry quote does work today. Stop bullshitting yourself and realize the present will be golden memories down the road.
The problems I had in the 1980’s and 1990’s all went away, but the good memories from those years remain.
In 2040 I’m not going to remember George’s missing report or Fritz’s incomplete assignment. I’m not going to remember the negative banter from an alcoholic or the mistake I made at work.
I’m going to remember how the sun shined on my balcony on a May afternoon. I’m going to remember how the lilacs smell in the spring. I’m going to remember George coming home from school and telling me he loves me. I’m going to remember walking through Riverside and seeing people I know.
I’m on day 20,774 of a pretty good fucking journey. I gotta stop bullshitting myself that the negative things matter so much and it’s the good things that need to be kept.
It’s Wednesday… kick the bullshit off your boots and strut your ass across the dance floor… and smell the lilacs while they still have a fragrance.
