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Friday, October 15, 2021

October 15th, 2021

  

It’s Friday and the Ides of October…. Beware in March, but in October be aware!
Autumn makes her first visit this weekend…. Collect your kindling and cut your pumpkins!
The months of Commando end on 10/15…. I think I’m going to wear something underneath with polka dots!







Thursday, October 14, 2021

October14th, 2021

 Have you ever noticed when your team wins you’ll hear, “WE won WE won! WE played so well today!”

….. but when the team loses, “THEY Suck! THEY couldn’t do anything right tonight!”
That’s why you need to make sure who your friends are and who your fans are!
I didn’t have any fans during my divorce or when I was unemployed, but I had friends.
Most of those fans are cheering for someone else, but my friends pop in and out of my life win or lose!
The smell of grilled onions and the crack of rawhide off wood seems so far away, but 168 days and it will all be back…. Like a clean chalkboard!









Wednesday, October 13, 2021

A year away from the Loop

 (I wrote this on October 13th, 2020. It was the last Tuesday that I called Chicago the place I worked in.... after over 30 years on the trading floor)


I walked across the Loop after the close today... the autumn sun angling down on the empty streets. The boarded up and vacant storefronts covered with prearranged graffiti. The bright lights on the Berghoff sign were off and the curtains drawn across the large windows.
State Street...that great street littered with garbage and derelicts in the late afternoon daylight. Chicago squad cars at every intersection rolling their Chicago Blue strobes.
“I’m not going to let this bother me!”
I turned onto Wabash Avenue to more shuttered storefronts and then I let it bother me.... The lights on Miller’s Pub were off. I still didn’t believe it was closed until I pulled on the door handle and it didn't open.... now I was sad!
I walked north as the elevated trains rumbled above my head. I walked by a deserted Palmer House as tears filled my eyes. The Pittsfield building to the north stood out as memories of countless Saturday breakfasts with my mommy and daddy filled my heart. I'd do anything to have breakfast with my parents.
I jaywalked across the street under the tracks and walked into the boarded up door of Iwan Ries. The hard marble staircase up to the second floor was small and covered with dust. The same flight that I took with my dad to get cigars. It once was such a grand trip holding my dads hand.
I smoked my farewell cigar as I walked back across the city on Monroe towards the river. The river was quiet as a half filled boat of tourists passed underneath.... I stopped and waved to them.
I daydreamed that I heard the tour guide say, “that’s the last of the trading floor greats up there puffing his cigar!” Actually I'm just a lucky guy who had a Journeyman career at the Chicago Board of Trade.
It was 2:15 and the "Empire Builder" was leaving on time crawling loudly beneath Union Station. I can see it through the opening along the river.
I’m not going to get my last couple cocktails at Miller’s before I leave for the suburbs... I look back through the train window as the Metra heads west. The bright sun shining off the skyline hides the pain underneath the shadows.
The pain of a urinated sanctuary long forgotten in the months since Covid shut it down.....
I was born here, I worked here and I’ve lived here. This wasn't the way I planned on leaving. No Hoopla! No cocktail party! No confetti falling from the rafters of the Bond Room.....
Now this can only happen to a guy like me and only happen in a town like this.... always will be My Kind of Town!




October 13th, 2021

        If you don’t win the last game of the season you’re still a loser… 10-1 and the end of a roller coaster season. Thanks White Sox!

       Today’s quote is credited to Robin Williams….

       …… I’d take out the word madness and replace it with passion. Never loose that spark of passion that you were born with!
          Passion gets you through happiness, love, pain and despair!
It’s good to have love in your heart, but love doesn’t grow without PASSION!








Tuesday, October 12, 2021

BB King and a couple white boys with jumper cables.

 In March of 1986 I was an invincible 19 year old at a BB King show in Merrillville... my buddy and I left the show and parked next to us was a sedan with the hood up and three older black men underneath. “You boys got jumper lines?” we replied that we did and jumped their car.

A fourth black man walked out and said, y’all got this old girl runnin’?” And a reply from the three men was “ya BB, these white boys had juice!”
We just jumped B.B. Kings dead battery! B.B. asked if we were heading back up to Chicago and we said yes.... we really were going to head back down to Indy. “Y’all follow us up... we are going to the Checkerboard!”
We showed up to the Southside at 1:30 in the morning with all the confidence a couple naïve punks could possess. We walked in and they were expecting the white boys with the jumper lines.
Four in the morning we pull into the house in Oak Park and my dad didn’t know if he should shit or go blind! I told my Oldman the story and he looked at me in disbelief....



The power of Bloggers and Movie actors


          On a rainout Monday when the Go Go White Sox should have carried their momentum into game four of the playoff series against a very strong Houston Astros, we were introduced to WSD or White Sox Dave.

          I'm a White Sox fan, a well read fan who knows stats and current players and a strong knowledge of Palehose history. I don't know if I should be embarrassed or proud to admit that I never heard of White Sox Dave! Like most of the sports world I was introduced to him when he video blogged his confrontation with actor John Cusack.

        Cusack doesn't know we've been buddies since he played "Gib" in "The Sure Thing." He comes from Evanston and Jeremy Piven's family theater program. He and I were born the week before fourth of July weekend in 1966. 

        I'll admit I was a little jealous when "Gib" was sitting in the premiere seats during the Cubbies 2016 World Series year. He won me back when I found out he was supporting the Sox during this years play off run.

      This is Chicago.... we have TWO teams! It is proper to Love one and Hate the other, but if we have friends that love "the other team" we don't need to hate them! We argue with them, we root against them during the Crosstown, but we don't wish them ill feelings!

     I got on the Lake Street elevated at Ridgeland Avenue in the late seventies and either stayed on it all the way down the Ryan line to 35th street (they were connected until the early 1990's when the Howard/Dan Ryan was formed) or I'd transfer in the Loop and get on a Northbound Howard. I went to both ballparks with lawnmower money in my pocket. Cusack has every right to do the same thing. This week he is a Cub fan rooting for the Sox. Just like when I went to Wrigley rooting against Pete Rose and the Reds or Mike Schmidt and the Phillies!

      Now who the hell is White Sox Dave? He's a Sports Blogger and one of Dave Portnoy's "Yes men." He symbolizes the downward spiral of journalism and the rise of Mealy mouth know it all's.

      Oh how I miss the days of "The Sportswriters on TV" when sports journalism was respected through men like Bill Jaus, Rick Telander, Bill Gleason and Ben Bentley. White Sox Dave is David Williams from Warrenville, Illinois. He played some baseball at North Central College before he got the attention of Barstool Sports. We've gone from four seasoned veterans with a deep knowledge of sports to a drunk kid from suburban Rockford who has Google!

   Let's focus on a White Sox victory today and a trip to Houston! I hope the Gentleman with the voodoo cane casts his spell on the Houston Bats this afternoon! I sure as hell hope John Cusack is sitting in Mayor Daley's seats with a Sox hat, a boom box from "Say Anything" and maybe even Steve Bartman sitting next to him!




October 12th, 2021

 Today’s quote is from Jon Gruden… on the same day he resigned because of 10 year old emails with homophobic and racist slurs I used homophobic and racist slurs in a satirical post.

Could this get me
In trouble in 10 years?
When you hit send on anything electronic it last forever! So the answer is “yes, quite possibly!”
Gruden says that you gotta try to keep getting better!
I promised my dad I’d always try to be better before he died…..He said I’ll get better only if my kids get better and the world that I touch is better along the path I’ve taken.
So another day when the sunrises at 7:00am gives me an opportunity to make the world better! Challenge accepted!!
Let’s go White Sox! Play well and earn a ticket to Houston! The world wants an all Sox ALCS!
It’s gumbo day! Shanahans has the best Gumbo on the Westside of Chicagoland.








Clearing the path for Columbus and Indigenous People

 My conservative friends take the Columbus side, my Liberal friends the Indigenous People side….

Both sides arguing for the extremes have fallen into the trap set for them….
So to mock everyone I celebrate “Heavyset WhiteBoy Day!”
So if you like loving people when the sun comes up and still loving them when the sun goes down…. You celebrate this day!
If you try and leave people with a smile and good feeling rather than a “Fuck you fatass!”
You celebrate this day!
If you enjoy cooking meals for people you like…. You’re in!
If you like to take naps and masterbate….. this day is for you!
If you realize everyone you meet came from a hole between a woman’s legs….. yes, you are with me….. but also realize all of those people are going to die…. Let’s celebrate because the span between these events needs love!
If you like beer….. in!
Cigars…..in!
Pizza……in!
Hot dogs with mustard…… in!
If you believe in Santa Claus….. this day is for you!
If you accept hookers, fags, kikes, spicks, shines, honkeys, retards and the rest of the ugliness in life as something that must be loved and nurtured……. Happy Heavyset WhitBoy Day!
If you like strong coffee, crisp bacon and oral sex to start the day! Happy HSWBD!
I’m setting the table for anyone who realizes life is too short, we all have fucking problems and we don’t need to be further divided from each other…… you have a seat at my dinner table!

Side note
(foul language and racial slurs are not acceptable in the world that I'm raising three children in. I will teach them the ugliness such words possess, but like history or controversial statues.... we must see them for what they are worth and for the hurt they may cause!)



Monday, October 11, 2021

October 11th, 2021

 Settling into October with a warm start makes me think that maybe October is the new September.

Yesterday was a Great day to be Bears and Sox fan…. I like the late afternoon game.









Sunday, October 10, 2021

October 10th, 2021

 “You’re just Going through the motions!!!”

Heard that many times as a kid…. From coaches, teachers, my parents!
I go through the motions at work and I get fired…. Go through the motions around my kids and they grow up pieces of shit…. Go through the motions In marriage and you end up…. Well…… happy in The DDD of Riverside!
Don’t be like me though…. Work hard everyday and keep faith in your marriage, go on dates, wear fun underwear and smiles!
Bear down Chicago Bears! Tits up Chicago White Sox!
If you’re carving pumpkins…. Coat the inside with Pam spray and cayenne…. It doesn’t kill the critters and it’s hilarious watching the squirrels with a face full of Cajun fire! 







Saturday, October 9, 2021

October 9th, 2021

 October 9th and I still have the GoldBond on the top shelf! One of you guys went out and bought new sweaters for Fall and the rest of us are sweating balls and boobs!

I love the changing of the seasons on the onion field by the lake! I’m worried my favorite season will be lost between a humid rainstorm and a windy snowstorm!
I want a fire pit, a couple dear friends, a sweater, a bottle of bourbon, a cigar, a good soundtrack and a crisp autumn moon…. That’s all I’m asking for Mother F. Nature.
Cutting short….. I just heard my Princess from the other room, “Dad? May I have a glass of water and can you sing me “Moonriver” again?”
Gotta go….. enjoy your Saturday!







Friday, October 8, 2021

October 8th, 2021

       When I was in 7th grade I had to rake the leaves in my Gramma’s yard. She had a small house in Broad Ripple, but it had huge trees in the front and back.

I did the back first, it was larger. I was losing daylight as I finished raking the front leaves into a huge pile.
I worked my ass off for two hours, blisters on the skin between my thumb and pointer finger. All that hard work and I decided to jump into my big pile of leaves.
The whole time I was outside working, Loretta was inside cooking dinner and occasionally looking out the window to see my progress.
At the moment I took my mighty and foolish leap into the pile of autumn…. My gramma quietly walked out on the front porch. Her “Grandmother sense” knew I was about to waste an afternoon’s work.
I laid in what was left of a pile of leaves strewn across the front lawn and saw my Gramma standing over me shaking her head in disgust.
In the darkness of an early November evening I finished my chore knowing I was going to get scolded….
After we said Grace I looked down at my plate and my Gramma said, “John Stephen…. It takes many good deeds to build a good reputation, and only one bad one to lose it.”
Today’s quote!
Eight years earlier my Grampa raked those same leaves on an autumn afternoon. He went inside and laid down to rest and he died in his sleep.
My Gramma was making dinner when she walked into the bedroom and found her husband had left for heaven.
Raking those leaves had more meaning to my Gramma than just a chore for her grandson from Chicago…. It was a lesson in becoming a man.
I’d do anything to sit at that dinner table and eat Brussel sprouts with my Gramma!
6130 Indianola……..



Wednesday, October 6, 2021

October 6th, 2021

 Beatles “in my Life” was the first song of the morning…. Not a bad way to start off the day.


I’m getting tired of putting clouds up in the right hand corner and I’m not to happy that the sunset is well before the “wheel of fortune.”

Not sure why this quote grabbed my attention…. Maybe it’s a reminder that I shouldn’t feel sorry for myself. Someone is envious of my position in life.
It also says that caring for others and worrying about them shows character… strong character!

The Boston Wag Sox won last night… I’m sure the new guy in heaven had his share of victory beer!



Thursday, June 24, 2021

June 24th, 2021

 It’s Thursday already so there is so much that we need to share,

So send a smile and show you care!



2020

Humpday... in 1977 the Sox lost and the Cubs won on June 24th.


2019

A friend came up to me at a get together yesterday and told me he looks forward to seeing my chalkboard everyday.... made me smile!
What started as a way to give the Shepkids familiarity between their mom’s house and my new home turned into therapy for me and has now become a daily springboard for my friends!
It’s the little things in life!



Wednesday, June 23, 2021

June 23rd, 2021

 June is flying by quickly! Full moon this week, but a cloudy forecast might keep us from the shine of the strawberry moon!




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Tuesday, June 22, 2021

June 22nd, 2021

 It took me years to realize all the Mickey Mouse Bullshit in my daily life was created by insecure people and on the days I was creating Mickey Mouse Bullshit… I was being insecure!

So I learned to stay away from the drama! It’s either going to be a tragedy or a comedy!
So today we are going to have a comedy….. also a Chocolate éclair!



2020
Percy Bysshe Shelley

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Monday, June 21, 2021

June 21st, 2021

         I’m just sitting here watching the world go round and round… though I slept through the tornado sirens last night!

Huge branch down across the street from my home when I walked to the Car.



2020

As I’ve gotten older I’ve learned that the sun and moon aren’t “just in the sky.” Everyday is different! Every shadow has a different length, every sunbeam a different angle.
Today at 4:43pm we celebrate the longest day of the year.
...Home is where I want to be....pick me up and turn me round!


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Sunday, June 20, 2021

June 20th, 2021

 I had so many sappy things to say for Father’s Day….. I’m just gonna say…. If today’s is the only day you are the King…. Let your servants serve you well!!!



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Saturday, June 19, 2021

June 19th, 2021

 Whenever things look horrible you need to rise up in the morning and have something you love give you incentive to sing off key or dance like Elaine Benes.

When we were forced to read Billy Shakes sonnets in school I didn’t realize some would be roadmaps on life’s path!
Especially Twenty Nine….



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